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2010-05-17T22:32:00.001+08:00

time to lay low.

John Donovan

2010-05-09T17:30:00.002+08:00

Helping others even as you've passed on.

I refer to John Donovan & Henrietta Lacks.

It is, indeed, heartwarming to know that in this impermanent, mortal world there once existed people who, perhaps unwittingly, through their demise have saved others from the same fate.

Their acts have gained them permanence in the history books and in the hearts of those they have touched.

Immortality needn't be transcendent; it need not be fashioned or etched in concrete, nor does it need to be caramelized in Hollywood glitz & glamour.

Make a difference, and you'll be remembered in the hearts of many.

2010-04-23T10:29:00.002+08:00

Somehow, the more I study it, the more I like it.

2010-03-15T00:39:00.002+08:00

"The long sobs of the violins of Autumn,"
"Soothes my heart with a monotonous languor."

2010-03-11T23:58:00.003+08:00

CURRENT AFFAIRS WORKSHOP!

God, I swear; it was epiphany after epiphany. I can't imagine how my life would play out if I had missed this. If I hadn't flunked my O's, if I hadn't worked so hard, I would've missed it. I guess it's fate that I met Mr Tong Yee.

He's just so inspiring that words fail to describe him. I guess it's one of those stuffs in life where you have to experience it yourself.

If you have children and want to send them for tuition, I'd suggest you start only at secondary school. Let them develop and mature by themselves in primary school. From secondary school on, I can recommend you the very best you can find in Singapore: ~~teachers~~ coaches that do not just teach.

These people are here to shape our lives, these people are here to guide: they do not just teach what is in the textbook, they do not teach you just Maths, English, Physics or GP. They teach you about life and how to live it, they teach you to look at things from a wider perspective. These are the people that I have grown to respect and love (note: not that kind of love): Mr Kenneth Ng & Mr Tong Yee.

I would say that these 2 people are the closest I've met to 'men among men'. Absolutely the two most inspiring people, yes siree.

I feel so full of latent energy right now LOL. Everytime I feel like this, I don't like to sleep. I'm afraid I'll wake up forgetting how I feel right now; I'm afraid I'll revert back to who I was before whatever happened. ):

2010-02-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

I kinda... ran out of steam.

2010-02-17T19:05:00.001+08:00

E is for entropy, and the second law of thermodynamics,

a law is a scientific principle that has been proven through and through,

the closest thing that science has to saying "this is absolutely true."

entropy is such a law, and it happily states,

Everything in the universe moves from ordered to disordered states.

It is why a hot plate of dinner will quickly cool to the touch,

and, maybe, why your mother is often stressed so much.

For perhaps another way of explaining this theory,

is also a way of telling you what makes mothers sometimes dreary –

whenever you clean your room you will have to clean it again,

for soon it will be as dirty as when you did begin.

- Taken from StevenRutledge.com

2010-02-14T22:34:00.002+08:00

I just realised I'll be screwed this semester.

I mean, with my IDS being so crap and my EHM... well, I blame myself ):

I did some thinking on my part about all that I've went though this 2 semesters over the Lunar New Year, and I realised that I enjoy being part of the group of people to which everything happens to. I'm not sure if I phrased that right.

Call it being part of the 'privileged group' if you may, it doesn't matter to me. I just don't wanna to miss a thing (as well-sung by Aerosmith); life is as short as it is, and I've wasted too much time. I hope I'll somehow miraculously scrape through into top 3 again.

In other news, I've been feeling pretty lousy lately; perhaps it's because I feel that I've been missing out on too much in life, all aspects of it. I'm not the guy I set myself out to be, maybe that's why.

Ever since I was capable of thinking rationally, I have kept getting myself enmeshed between rather conflicting ideas and personalities: the recessive ones are the ones I want but, hey, they are recessive :/

So... I hope you've had a blast this new year. Happy Lunar New Year!

2010-02-02T13:51:00.002+08:00

It's been a long, looonnggggg time since I last blogged.

It has been busy, hectic, swamped, strenuous, restless, tiresome and tied up period for me with all the projects piling up and the exams drawing near.

Now that half of the projects are over and done with, I thought I'd draw some time to come and record whatever needs to be recorded.

They say that true colors show in times of crisis; I'm not sure whether project-deadline-is-tomorrow-I'm-still-not-even-half-done-yet constitutes crisis, but the saying sure doesn't apply to it. In fact, I think I'm even blur-er now as to who I am or what I want to be. I guess you can say I'm still trying to fit in.

And time isn't the only thing that's going out of supply now; my bank is, too. It just seemed like $500 disappeared overnight. In fact, I think I know where it went; I'm just too lazy to remember hahaha.

Oh well, time to get back to my ABC Waters report.

2010-01-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

I don't feel like dancing no sir no dancin' today.

2010-01-21T00:14:00.003+08:00

People are really, really interesting.

2010-01-17T03:15:00.002+08:00

People are so interesting.

2010-01-14T01:05:00.005+08:00

Such a feeling's coming over me
There is wonder in 'most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the Sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen

I'm on the top of the world looking
Down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found
Ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's telling me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasing sense of happiness for me

There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here

I'm on the top of the world looking
Down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found
Ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world.

2010-01-10T23:03:00.002+08:00

Quite an eye-opener today.

I just spent the whole day with a group of 17/18-year old NUS/NTU students from China and I must say I've learnt a lot from observing them.

But I'm like so tired and lazy to continue >_> So I'm turning in early today!

Nights :P

2010-01-03T03:28:00.005+08:00

Disclaimer: These pictures aren't mine, as you can pretty much tell from the watermarks. Credits go to BHills & Jeff79 from HardwareZone forum.

Click on the pictures to view them in original size.

For those who missed these lovely lights:

Happy New 2010 (:

2010-01-03T03:15:00.003+08:00

2010-01-03T02:08:00.004+08:00

After witnessing 3 birthday parties today, I have the urge to organise one :S

And I think I have a new, real resolution.

2010-01-02T01:45:00.004+08:00

New year's resolutions?

How about Obama's campaign slogan?

2010-01-02T01:07:00.001+08:00

New year, old feelings.

Sigh.

2009-12-29T21:07:00.000+08:00

So full of thoughts right now.

2009-12-26T18:57:00.002+08:00

Taking a break from spring cleaning!

Frankly speaking, it was like treasure hunt, Home Version 2.0.

While clearing my room, I found:
- old toys
- noob Pokemon drawings
- secondary school journals
- old textbooks
- stamp albums (including my grandfather's epic album)
- the marbles my dad played when he was a child
- one too many forgotten bags and baggages etc etc.

Brings back memories, eh? And I have no idea what kind of putrid discovery I'm gonna come across next.

It's good to get in touch with reality, which I do when I read old journals, works and documents: old resolutions resurface, dreams and aspirations relive themselves and memories come alive; it's kinda like a chronological checklist, scar-ridden with dust, mold, many cancellations and empty checkboxes. Sad to say, my parents are on a killing spree this year; I don't think many of these old relics can live past today.

I guess everything has to come to an end! Well, looking on the bright side, I'm going to have a wayyyyyy neater room come ~~2012~~ 2010. Yay! :D

Halftime's over, I'm going back ~~into the abyss~~ to ~~dredge~~ clear up the remains of my ~~past~~ humble abode.

Ciao.

2009-12-23T10:34:00.000+08:00

Once in your life you find her
Someone that turns your heart around
And next thing you know you're closing down the town
Wake up and it's still with you
Even though you left her way across town
Wondering to yourself, "Hey, what've I found?"

When you get caught between the Moon and New York City
I know it's crazy, but it's true
If you get caught between the Moon and New York City
The best that you can do ......
The best that you can do is fall in love

Arthur he does as he pleases
All of his life, he's mastered choice
Deep in his heart, he's just, he's just a boy
Living his life one day at a time
And showing himself a really good time
Laughing about the way they want him to be

When you get caught between the Moon and New York City
I know it's crazy, but it's true
If you get caught between the Moon and New York City
The best that you can do...
The best that you can do is fall in love

When you get caught between the Moon and New York City
I know it's crazy, but it's true
If you get caught between the Moon and New York City
The best that you can do...
The best that you can do is fall in love

2009-12-17T22:39:00.004+08:00

I lol'd when I saw this hahaha

2009-12-14T22:05:00.004+08:00

Maybe cliché, but here goes:

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you.

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You.

All I want for Christmas is you... baby

Touché.

2009-12-13T23:41:00.004+08:00

"Hmm."

Hmm.

2009-12-12T00:09:00.002+08:00

Gosh, the cleaning auntie at Clementi's Mos Burger sure is nice.

I accidentally toppled my cup and spilt like half of my soup content on the table. When she came to deliver me my order, she saw the mess and cleaned it up. She then got her manager to get me a new cup of soup.

I was feeling particularly shitty before that. What she did sure made my day.

I also realised today that I'm not as confident as I thought myself to be. Under normal circumstances I would've just shrugged it off as me being tired, but I guess what Mr Tong Yee said was right: the brain tends to protect the heart.

Time to change :/

2009-12-09T04:25:00.001+08:00

A bit too last minute to start studying last minute, isn't it?

2009-12-02T21:16:00.002+08:00

Are you watching the fireworks at Vivo?

2009-12-02T20:58:00.003+08:00

I've been so much of a zombie these few days :/

And I haven't started studying for common tests oh no D:

JE library anyone?

2009-11-28T01:40:00.001+08:00

So... where do I get tickets to watch?

2009-11-26T00:49:00.003+08:00

From the looks of it, I won't be getting any shuteye tonight. 2 half-done reports to rush :/

I think I'll most probably collapse tomorrow either during orienteering or the night cycling recce.

I'll put my money on the recce :D

2009-11-23T01:31:00.001+08:00

Inconsistency has taken it's toll at last!

2009-11-21T13:55:00.002+08:00

Was that for real or was that just another dream?

2009-11-21T02:02:00.004+08:00

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as
Plain ol' Jane told a story about a man
Who was too afraid to fly so he never did land

But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way

Tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the Milky Way
To see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated?

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me
While you were looking for yourself out there?

2009-11-21T00:59:00.005+08:00

~~cereal~~ serial killer!

the picture is making me so hungry >_>

2009-11-19T23:50:00.001+08:00

Yay!

2009-11-17T23:20:00.005+08:00

Got a ticket for a world where we belong, so will you be my baby?

2009-11-17T22:32:00.001+08:00

Wonder how this year's Christmas will turn out.

2009-11-16T22:53:00.001+08:00

I've been saying the wrong stuff for 2 days in a row now ):

2009-11-15T13:12:00.004+08:00

'Cause ~~you're~~ I'm hot then ~~you're~~ I'm cold
~~You're~~ I'm yes then ~~you're~~ I'm no
~~You're~~ I'm in then ~~you're~~ I'm out
~~You're~~ I'm up then ~~you're~~ I'm down

~~You're~~ I'm wrong when it's right
~~It's~~ I'm black and ~~it's~~ I'm white
~~We fight we break up~~
~~We kiss we make up~~

2009-11-12T23:27:00.005+08:00

"How tired I am
Of this unbearable distance between us;
How I long for the toll of the recess bell.
Have you forgotten me?
Grown mindless of me.
Tell me I am not
Writing into an abyss
Or that is what will become of my heart."

The ginna more powerful than me ):

2009-11-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

CJC,
Far East,
Tangs,
Wisma,
Taka,
Cine,
Orchard Central,
Istana,
Plaza Sing,
Vivo,
End.

2009-11-10T01:10:00.001+08:00

Yes and no at the same time;

Meh, I'm pathetic ):

2009-11-08T00:03:00.004+08:00

Phew!

I think I haven't recovered from last night's cycling session yet.

I somehow like night cycling. Not because it's fun and all, but because it gives me a great platform to sort out my thoughts. I'm weird right? Hahaha.

Reached home this morning at 11.30. Took a shower and slept all the way till 7+.

When my dad woke me up, I thought it was time to go to school LOL

Pretty much of what happened during the night consisted of me just listening in on conversations. I don't really know why I don't talk much with my poly friends :/ wrong frequency perhaps. I'm always at a loss for words. Sometimes I'm afraid I'll say the wrong stuff, or say something really stupid.

But anyway, I feel more motivated to chiong for 4.0 this semester after listening to my seniors talk LOL.

Let's start with doing my homework >_>

2009-11-05T01:10:00.004+08:00

I'm starting to think along the lines of 'it's impossible'.

It's been quite some time now, and I can't afford to waste any more time. Projects are piling, common tests are nearing; I still have quite a lot of loose ends to tie, too.

It doesn't help that I'm currently stuck playing the PS now. 6 solid hours of play; haven't done that in quite a while.

Sigh.

2009-11-02T20:34:00.002+08:00

It's getting more difficult.

2009-10-28T23:56:00.005+08:00

Went to crash SAJC today!

Met Bryan at the Ngee Ann bus stop and took 154 to SA where he smuggled me in through the church entrance LOL

Stayed in the canteen pretty much half my time there doing some... eh, soul searching? You could say so. HAHA

So 5pm came and 6pm came; Zijian finished his PW and Bryan, his guitar. Met up with Jack, Vanessa, Timo, Serene and Estella!

Proceeded to play basketball! Disgraced myself there ahaha ):

Serene's touch rug friend told me this when I didn't catch her pass:

"You're not the only one with patterns!"

:( How true.

2009-10-27T21:41:00.001+08:00

Curse and swear ):

2009-10-27T21:05:00.004+08:00

I blacked-out today while playing basketball :/

The lack of exercise is showing! This, with my dismal 2.4 timing ):

I need to get ~~my sexyback~~ back into shape!

2009-10-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

Wrong, wrong, wrong.

2009-10-26T01:13:00.002+08:00

Long and tiring day; fun nevertheless!

Been spending much lately. Time to scrimp and save :/

Wherefore art thou?

2009-10-25T01:17:00.005+08:00

After some time I've finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's crying while she's saying this

Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

Against the wind I'm going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than
friends

But still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she cried while she was saying this

Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said

Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

I can still hear what she said.

2009-10-24T00:47:00.000+08:00

2009-10-22T23:22:00.003+08:00

前尘往事成云烟消散在彼此眼前
就连说过了再见也看不见你有些哀怨
给我的一切你不过是在敷衍
你笑得越无邪我就会爱你爱得更狂野

总在刹那间有一些了解
说过的话不可能会实现
就在一转眼发现你的脸已经陌生不会再像从前

我的世界开始下雪, 冷得让我无法多爱一天
冷得连隐藏的遗憾都那么地明显

我和你吻别在无人的街,
让风痴笑我不能拒绝
我和你吻别在狂乱的夜,
我的心等着迎接伤悲

想要给你的思念就像风筝断了线
飞不进你的世界也温暖不了你的视线
我已经看见一所悲剧正上演
剧终没有喜悦我仍然躲在你的梦里面

总在刹那间有一些了解
说过的话不可能会实现
就在一转眼发现你的脸已经陌生不会再像从前

我的世界开始下雪, 冷得让我无法多爱一天
冷得连隐藏的遗憾都那么地明显

我和你吻别在无人的街,
让风痴笑我不能拒绝
我和你吻别在狂乱的夜,
我的心等着迎接伤悲。

2009-10-22T21:08:00.001+08:00

Meh, orienteering.

Confused :/

2009-10-19T01:19:00.002+08:00

I just came across something I shouldn't have.

I guess I won't be able to sleep well tonight!

2009-10-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

The Bouncer | MySpace Video

2009-10-11T23:13:00.001+08:00

Tired.

But happy!

2009-10-03T22:11:00.001+08:00

2009-10-03T01:37:00.013+08:00

Today (or rather, yesterday) was Nan Hua's Annual Mid-Autumn Festival celebrations.

In case anyone asks, yes, I leeched the pictures off Facebook hahaha (thanks Meilin). I don't really know her but... thanks! :X

In that respect, I think that it's only fair that I don't leech too many pictures.

Gosh, I think I'm lucky that I went with Timotheus and gang; it would've been really dull without them.

Throughout the whole evening, I was anticipating meeting people from 407. Boy, was I excited to.

Just that when I finally came to meet them, it turned out to be nothing much. It was even a bit awkward, if anything. Gosh, the hell's wrong with me?

I thought that I've changed throughout all that I've went through in poly. I thought, you know, that perhaps after having met so many new people I would be more open, more sociable - a better conversationalist - and be able to conduct myself better; in short, be myself when I want to. In the end, I'm still having these awkward silences, I'm still having nothing to say, I'm still feeling shitty, I'm still closing up. Yes, to the point that it gets awkward. It sucks.

I hope nothing has changed between all of us.

2009-09-29T23:42:00.008+08:00

I often look longingly at them: the great sense of camaraderie they share with their peers, their laughter, their smiles; fun and joy springs to mind at the very thought of it. Deep inside, something would move, something would grow. It was resent; not for them, but for myself.

'It could have very well been me,' I would always say to myself. This would always be followed by an overwhelming sense of helplessness and regret.

I would, almost religiously, then start to fantasize about being in a junior college of my choice; ah, the fun, the laughter. Eating in that small canteen where everybody has a smattering of everyone else.

But then, I would ask myself: 'Will I be willing to make the trade?"

I've weighed the options, I know the answers. But one can dream, can't he?

2009-09-29T22:44:00.001+08:00

I'm glad I'm going to Hong Kong with this group of people.

2009-09-28T22:00:00.003+08:00

These are really cute!

These pictures are from a blog called 'MY MILK TOOF'; a friend of mine shared this with me just today :D

2009-09-28T03:05:00.004+08:00

I should learn to have more trust in people.

I've been having lots of random thoughts lately, for some reason. The past few days are but a hazy blur in my mind. I'm positive something triggered them.

I should get my head shaved.

I felt so helpless when I saw Andrew sprawled on the floor; there was nothing I could do but stare and clear for the paramedics. He's strong, yes he is. He seems so cheerful all the time. Who would've thought?

Sigh.

2009-09-27T15:38:00.000+08:00

Love CampTCP '09!

2009-09-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man.

2009-09-25T01:01:00.001+08:00

Tongue-tied and overloaded.

2009-09-18T16:46:00.008+08:00

I was squeezing on the bus to school when I received an SMS:

"NP> COMT = A ;ELS =AD ;LCRM =AD ;LA =A ;TEC =B ;TFM =A"

That seriously made my day. I think I smiled so much that the other commuters thought I was crazy LOL

The only thing I'm unhappy with is my econs. It's really frustrating to know that you came up an inch short of perfect D:

But who have I to blame?

2009-09-17T14:24:00.003+08:00

I've become more practical and less idealistic. Not sure if I like the sound of that.

2009-09-16T23:46:00.005+08:00

I so don't know what to blog about ._.

My mind has been in a semi-permanent state of mental block ever since Monday happened. It couldn't be the workshop, could it?

Nah, I just need more sleep.
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"...and she brushed past me.

'Ah. This is a good place to sit.'

She placed her bags on the bench adjacent to mine as she began, with much difficulty, to sit down. I watched her as she fished for her water tumbler from her bag and as soon as she did, the wind started to pick up, putting her at the mercy of the chilling rain.

She packed up and stood, calm and oblivious to her surroundings. Slowly, she trudged to the bench a little further up and laid her belongings on it. The scene was not unlike that of a picnic; her colorful dress danced to the wind as she sat, quietly sipping from her tumbler.

I finished the last of my gelato and wiped my face with a tissue. I stood up, eyes still fixated on her. It struck me then, that moments like this don't come by often. I was stuck in a dilemma; part of me wanted to go over and strike conversation while the other was uncomfortable at the thought of it. With great deliberation, I started walking back into the mall. I peered over my shoulder and as I did, a part of me went all warm and fuzzy.

As I approached the automatic glass door, I was greeted with a frigid blast of cold air; I disposed of the gelato cup and stole another glance at the old lady as I placed one foot on the metal step of the escalator: that tranquility, a weak, lonely figure against the grey, blurry rain."

2009-09-16T00:17:00.000+08:00

2009-09-14T23:25:00.004+08:00

I find it hard to face some people; it just gets awkward to the point where I close up.

2009-09-14T01:26:00.012+08:00

Skin look familiar?

I like it simple :D

Meh, I'm lazy to continue doing anything more. I'll add the picture and whatnot another time.

In the meanwhile...

Official music video here

Thanks Klinsen.